Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Monday, March 28, 2011
"no, i'm not wrong - she's there, i know she's there!" i yelled at him.
"you absolutely know she's there - even though you can't see her?" he asked me. "YES!" i screamed.
"well, now you know how i feel about god", said owen meany. "i can't see him - but i absolutely know he is there!"
the past couple weeks i have been thinking about and questioning everything regarding god and religion. when i was little, i resented going to church. when i was in my teens, i resented god because it seemed he took away everyone i cared for. now in my twenties, i resent not knowing anything about... anything. therefore, i have started reading a lot about different beliefs and asking my friends and family about theirs, just so i can start the process of learning what and what not i believe in.
faith, on the other hand, is a little more tricky to learn about and believe in - especially for someone who doesn't have much faith in anything. how does someone get it? how do you know something exists, when there isn't much concrete proof? how do you believe the proof, in the first place? i am someone who needs to see to believe.
it's too bad owen meany himself couldn't jump out from beyond the pages, sit me down and explain his feelings and faith to me.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
this weekend a. and i decided to get out of the house and have a lil' day date downtown taking pictures, eating food & admiring the green river. but as we were riding the el, we realized that we were a week late on the st. patrick's day festivities. so at the last minute, we decided to peruse the neighborhood of old town. and boy are we glad we did! it's now our new favorite neighborhood :]
we came across the cutest little shops. there was a great spice shop, a nicole miller that i wouldn't bring myself to in, and tons of restaurants. my favorite shops were pulp and ink [so in love with stationary], the fudge pot [umm hi chocolate shaped everything] and a lil' flower shop with three stories worth of flowers, wreaths, vases and more. for dinner we ate a new place called the flat top grille - it was like a mongolian bbq on steroids. SO yummy!
we didn't get too many pictures that day - but here are a few we snagged [don't judge my senior photo pose... i get nervous when my picture is being taken!].
jean blazer ~ ann taylor loftsweater ~ h&mjeans ~ kohlsboots ~ charlotte russescarf ~ targetcute boy ~ a. :]
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
when you are very young, home is comforting and safe. in your teens, home is restricting. when you are in college, home is a relaxing get-away. in your twenties, home is something that cannot seem to be obtained.
my friend kate said that her town is like a black hole. so is mine. but in all reality, all small towns are like black holes. no one ever leaves and when you try, you somehow get dragged back in.
my mother and i have moved around many times throughout my life, but the one place we always came back to was coloma, michigan. coloma is one of the smallest towns. it consists of six bars, one movie theater, three gas stations and hundreds of farms - as does every single town within a thirty mile radius. the closest 'big' city is kalamazoo, which is about forty minutes away. most of the people here are small minded, opinionated and gossipy. but those are things i got used to.
what i haven't gotten used to, however, are the memories that seem to haunt me every time i visit. the minute i walk into my room, i see jeremy. when i drive downtown, i think of high school and all the drama that came with it. right next door is my grandfather's grave. three doors down is my former best friends' home. it feels like every time i come around, i get ambushed by the past.
the older i get, the more i yearn for my own home.
a place i am in love with; a place i can redo, decorate and make my own; a place to grow.
a place to make new memories.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
i am sitting on my mother's new comfy burgundy couch, watching sex & the city on e! and listening to her make my favorite dessert [chocolate pudding/vanilla wafers/cool whip - yumo!].
i am still basking in the glory of a lil' spring shopping we did this afternoon. i'll be bringing these back to evanston :D
my heart is going out to all those affected in japan and hawaii.
i'm missing my
two three lil' cuddle bugs so much.
my etsy addiction is getting overwhelming. i am obsessed with the vintage parlor shop and would love this and this :
aaaand right this second i am in the process of writing a blog about 'home' that i will post tomorrow - so stayed tuned :]